about [ abandon ]

[ HOLE II ] [ abandon ] is my most expensive shooting to date. I had to go to Brussels, to rent an hotel room and to pay the model (first time ever).
I did all this because of the model. Because I knew exactly what I wanted to do (pornography) and she was the only model I found on the internet with the style and the mind to do it. And I searched a lot for a long time. So I went to Brussels from Paris to do the shooting.That was a risk for me because I did'nt meet the model before the shooting (as I ALWAYS do).

I did the shooting on september 2006. Almost 2 years after [ HOLE II ]. The reason is I almost quitted photography in 2005. No envy. No good models.
I did some shootings in 2006 (one in fact). So when I planned [ HOLE II ] I had the chance to really think about it. It was really a "cerebral shooting". I mean everything was planned.

It was about pornography. But I didn't wanted to do pornography. I wanted to do Natacha Merrit, Roy Stuart, Nan Goldin. I wanted to proove to the world and to myself I can do pornography with the same quality as my previous work.

It was really pretentious in a way but I said [ HOLE ] is about private boundaries.

And it was a personal messages to some people who fucked up my life. I had nothing to loose. It was an abandon of who I tried to be for them.